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if you don’t think this is the saddest thing in the whole of the MCU then you’re very very wrong.
I could look at this for hours.
I can’t get over the fact of how dazed he seems to be on that 1st gif, totally and completely out of it, like nothing around him matters, like he’s just something who happens to be in that room for the nth time. All so familiar and pointless and void. And then he acknowledges Steve, mentions him on his ‘debrief’. “He’s agitated. Erratic.” And Pierce tries to snap him out of it with the only way that works and that has been working for decades: violence. Violence as the element for catharsis. AND IT DOESN’T WORK.
The Winter Soldier frowns. Frowns! The dazed expression is no more. He’s trying to get any answer from his handler. He insists. He wants to know. HE WANTS! And his face mirrors the conflict in his mind. The coldness is suddenly gone and i think it’s important to realize what a huge step this is. The amount of emotion – even if imperceptible –, and of need that surges from someone who hasn’t even flinched in decades, not at the order for murder, not for his own incarceration and freezing, not even at the risk of his survival.
This need comes from a peek into his hidden self. A peek that takes the form of Steve Rogers. My shipper heart may disagree but truth is TWS has no idea who Steve is. He just knows that he’s someone of relevance. The 1st meaningful thing that has cracked the walls in his mind. This fact alone brings a form of rebellion his handlers never saw. And that’s dangerous. So TWS ‘rebels’ at the expense of another mind wipe. This blows my mind!
An then, of course, his immediate complacency for the consequences of his rebellious act. He will take his torture as he’s been taking it since he broke. Quietly.
And if not for his reactive heartbeat to fear and pain, he would truly seem what they tried to make him. A machine.
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Tom Hiddleston seen dressed in costume while filming scenes for their new horror movie ‘Crimson Peak’ in Toronto on April 16, 2014 [HQ]
Tom Hiddleston on the set of Crimson Peak | Toronto, Canada, April 16, 2014
"Poetry soothes and emboldens the soul to accept the mystery." (Bright Star, 2009)
Pushing Daisies is really relatable to me b/c I also struggle with the fact that I can’t touch Lee Pace.